We all have them. Those silly ideas that make us get up in the middle of the night when we hear a strange noise. Irrational fears are sometimes helpful, too. The issue with fear and anxiety is its hidden nature. We have learned through shame to hide the perceived flaw of being afraid. It’s so not John Wayne.
Nothing to Fear But Fear
I needed to get up from my desk at work to head towards the kitchen and run an errand downstairs. I usually push these things aside for a little longer and a little bit more. Why? I’m not lazy. I question my reluctance. I feel anxious as I push through the glass door and leave my area to go into the wild beyond. Agoraphobia? Surely not. Oh, it’s something sneakier. Can you guess?
Times have changed from our young days, and we are remote from our parent’s experiences. They didn’t do passwords, key fobs, badges, microchips, or credit cards with 3-digit codes on the back. Most didn’t lock the doors of their houses growing up.
It Haunts
Do you have a memory of being locked out? I am freakishly paranoid. I can panic for no reason if I think I can’t get into my car or house. Somehow, my subconscious has extended this fear into my ability to access my computer at work. I dread leaving my desk and having to lock everything down. It’s unbelievable for a grown woman who can drive alone across the states, do her taxes, and buy a house. But at times, this woman is so dazed by fear that her fingers become limp. She can’t even type. But it happens.
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